肥やし

好きなこと、色んなこと、ふと思いついたことについて語りたいと思ってます。

that was not love

I finally realized that was not love, but addiction.

 

we hated each other. We dislike each other.

 

we will never get what we want from this.

 

it was a disaster that I met her.

 

I became  addicted to her.

 

Now, I know everything.

 

I found out everything.

 

Now, it is time to throw her away.

 

she is no good for me.

 

it is time to be with one who is truthful.

 

or at least I can have a good relationship with.

 

Delete her from my life.


I believed I am stuck in her.

 

But I realized that I can fall in love quite easily

 

i think it is a matter of time.

 

anyway, after graduation, she turns into nothing.

 

 

 

 

Rules of Life 1

Focus on things that is in your control. Ignore anything which is not in your control. These are up to nature. Don't be bothered by those around you. It is not in your control. You may be irritated, and bothered or even loved. These are outside of your control. it is in nature. Let it happen whatever they happen. Inside you, your power of choice and action is always there, and it is finally what is really important and only important to you.

to deal with those who brings people down

They are already in a great pain. Don't open the wounds. They cannot cope. They don't know what is happening, and for me, get them out of my life. Just take care of people I care and be cared. Those who bad mouth, they are hurting themselves. They will die in hell. No matter how much attention they get, no matter how they succeed. They are living in the hell, so don't care about them. I do not have to do anything. Be with those who I care, I feel connected, I love, I precious, and think about before I die. Others, I don't care and no need to care. Be rational and stay on the track.

実は

僕たちはないものばかりに目を向けて、現在なにに恵まれているかをあまり考える余裕がない。特に僕はその傾向が強い。今ないものをどうにか手にしようと足掻き、自分を苦しめる。悪いことではないと思うが、それは時にストレスとなる。昨日、友人とこれからの日本について話した。10年、20年先どうなっているか、だれにもわぁらない。今は一番幸せだったと思い出す日が5日来るかもしれない。

born and die

I born alone and die alone.

 

everything is my responsibility.

 

it is a reality.

 

I cannot change it.

 

Will I face it like a man 

 

or 

 

will I nag like a child 

 

fuck life

 

be a man until I am alive 

 

while my heart beats 

 

while I keep breathing 

 

anything can happen 

 

keep being a man. 

in any circumstances

 

I know I am not strong

 

but don't die while you are alive

 

die when you are dead not while you are alive.